Post by JUDE RYAN WINSLET on Jan 21, 2013 19:14:19 GMT -5
| [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=style, background: #999999; width:450px; height:490px; padding:0px;] THE GUILT’S NO GOOD & IT ONLY SHAMES US MORE and the truths that we all try to hide, are so much clearer when its not our lives, when we don't face the blame. won't you believe, have faith, in this lie with us all. now my body's on the floor and I'm calling out to you. can you hear me now? TAGGED: openish? OUTFIT: here NOTES: just a quick one! |
Jude should have been prepared for the outburst but frankly he just didn’t want to hear anymore about tonight. He wanted to go home, get drunk and wake up to everything being fine in the morning. He was so sick of all the bullshit he had to deal with. His fingers scratched at his forehead as she went off on him. Jude poured himself a drink in another glass as she continued, sipping on it. But saying he wasn’t being a boyfriend was bullshit. ”Wow, are you serious? Me not being the boyfriend? Oh yeah, that’s why I beant over backwards for you the last three days. Yeah, that’s not being a boyfriend.” He shook his head. This is really not how he wanted things to go.
”I’m sorry you don’t think I care but I’m not sorry I said it. I’m not saying you wouldn’t care abut Natalie I’m just saying I don’t want to hear this shit. I had my car and worked vandalized but you don’t see me bitching about it. They’re just things, Sydni. They can be cleaned or replaced. As you clearly stated, you lost your mother and baby brother because of what we know. So now you have to wonder who else out there knows, what exactly they know and what they plan to tell people. Not worry about your damn car!” Was he the only one thinking rationally at this moment? Was he the only one piecing together that maybe everything that was written up had to do with what him, Sydni and others knew. Jdue was thinking of it. He was a lawyer-he had to get in the minds of who he was up against. Honestly, it wasn’t too hard to do that when you got the messages first. If only he could meet the person behind them.
Jude scratched at his temple. ”Then run for mayor! God no one told you to do everything at once. You are able to ask for help but you don’t. So you don’t get to snap at me because you chose not to ask for help and not to sleep. This works both ways.” No, Jude wasn’t going to yell. His voice remained steely, almost even. Outside of the courtroom he didn’t like to go head to head with anyone. It’s why until recently he didn’t let anyone in. Jude had no problem just shutting down and walking away from any type of confrontation. He set the glass down on his father’s alcohol caddy and sat down on the couch. Jude was basically in shut down mode until he could get home. Then he could get really drunk and pass out.
”Well, like you said you didn’t know about Natalie and I don’t know the plan for finding her. Was told to stay put in case the police need my help. As for dealing whoever did this honestly I could care less. This isn’t my mess to clean up. And it‘s not yours either. As you said you‘re already stressed out enough. Just go home and go to bed. Or sleep here. Doesn‘t matter. I‘ve got your message loud and clear that I‘m a shitty boyfriend so don’t need to worry about that.” His eyes closed as he leaned his head back. Jude was sorry that Sydni’s mom and her unborn brother had died along with all the others but he never asked to be apart of this. He was forced into this giant web of lies. His father and her father and everyone else involved could deal with this mess themselves.
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